self-portrait ~ 1985/age 15

      round, blue eyes
      surrounded by full cheeks
      dusted with freckles
      the big, pink mouth
      the vision is greyed with
      fear; uncertainty

      colorful blonde feathers
      fan my face
      cover what I do not want to be seen
      I hide
      in loose clothing
      I hide
      grey emotion
      not ready for acceptance
      not ready for rejection
      I'm not ready, I'm not ready yet.

      flower in the winter
      I close, wait for the sun.

© 1985/2001